You know how sometimes you pray a prayer in complete sincerity and then the prayer is actually answered? But the answer to that prayer is more painful than you could ever have imagined it to be?
I have never in my life felt the way that I feel at this moment in time. And right now I don't see myself ever being able to stand on my feet again. I'm listening to old songs that carry so many memories, memories I didn't even remember I had.
And I just can't breathe.
I can't do it alone.
But God is gracious. He really is. The only way I've made it through this day is because of Him. I think God allows certain things to happen sometimes because He knows that it will knock you down and force you to see what it is He has for you.
But that doesn't make it any less painful.
It just makes it tolerable.
If you read this, please pray for me. I need as many prayers as I can get right now.
